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Fluttering Butterflies   
10:49pm 30/07/2004
 
mood: crazy
it is this intense feeling of happiness
it sends tingles all over your body
your so happy that your smiling on the inside and the out
what has made you become so overcome with happiness?
could it be that special someone... or is cupid playin with your heart?
huh... who knew it was all a dream
or was it
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Change is the circle of life!!!   
10:05pm 28/07/2004
 
mood: amused
It is funny how things have a habit of changing drastically. One minute you go from being a scared high school graduate to learning the circles of life.

I must say that I miss high school. I never thought I would admit this but it's true. Everything seems so complicated... not like in high school but much bigger things to stress about. I guess the reason I miss it is because I have some regrets. I wish I would have taken the time to say good bye to those who mattered. I realize now more then ever that I might never get the chance to say hello to that one person. Yah know??

Well, anyways, work is good... and life it's self brings new attrubutes everyday/

ashley		  
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Soar high above the clouds....   
04:24pm 16/06/2004
 
mood: high
music: Usher
so today is good. I must say i am most pleased with the way the weather turned out today, it is beautiful and very warm. God I am so happy that school is finally over. It is so great to be in the warm glowing sun... soaking up the next couple months of freedom.

So I had like an "awe" moment today. Have you ever just felt like doing something spontaneously? Cuz that is what i have been feeling like all day. Making a spontaneous decision is a lot of work. Huh... pondering.... and still no complete answer. Should I do it? Or is it a mistake? Will the outcome be good? Or bad? Huh... no one seems to know.... Should I take a chance and be daring? Or should I sit back and do some more pondering? I don't know but it's a decision that must be made fast.

I have seriously been feeling like i don't want a boyfriend anymore. I know that sounds bad but i just want to be free and just hang loose. I don't know what has gotton into me but I think it is about time for me to enjoy being single.... huh!!! Who knows~

Well this is the end... it is time for me to go

Take care to all		  
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Emotions fade.... fade to nothing.......   
08:58pm 01/06/2004
 
mood: curious
In my mind I built a perfect person. But, how perfect is perfect, especially if it was all make believe? You think a person can change but one day you realize that it will never happen. No matter how many times you set yourself in the eye of the beholder you still get the shitty end of the deal! I ask myself everyday... how could I do it all over again? How could I believe in my heart that the perfect person I imagined in my dream was merely that and nothing more. You think you know someone but really you have no idea. You open your feelings to the ones that matter only to find out you are alone with your fears, hopes and sadnesses. Not, only does a person change but they stop caring, they themselves dream up a perfect person and in reality it becomes nothing but a hurtful game, a pleasure for the mind, body and soul. But, how does that make one another feel? How can a person be played by the same game over and over again and not get a clue?

How long does the game go on? Forever? Or till something better comes along? Why set yourself up for a game when you could have a real life that is meaningful? You want the aprovel of the ones that you care about but if you can't have it do you turn your back and do what you think in your mind is right? Do you lose the game to fulfill needs that aren't met?

So, the game ends with play... goes no further... What would happen if the game didn't end there? What if play was further from the end... what if sex end up being the end? Or does sex just complicate the game and really end it? Maybe or maybe not... only the game players can identify........		  
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So Irritated !!!!   
09:56pm 12/04/2004
 
mood: irritated
music: Lovin' Me
When is it going to change? When will it all just change? Never? Why do I try? What is the fucking point? I don't get it I try so hard to be friends and still it goes nowwhere. God! Some people need to just grow up and realize that life is way to short to hate. Someday... maybe... they'll realize that friends are hard to come by and when you have one that cares you shouldn't let them pass by. Oh well! I guess it's time to move on and forget it all.

Ashley		  
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Lost Innocence....   
09:54pm 03/04/2004
 
mood: cheerful
music: Just a Friend~ Mario
I was going through some old photos today and I realized that I have changed so much. I used to be so innocent and now I feel that I have completely ruined my perfect innocence. In a way it makes me feel pleased because it shows that I have grown up in many ways and I have my experiences to thank for that. But, in another sense it makes me sad because I can no longer have that innocence back. My image is transformed into something much worse. It's not that I think bad of myself or anything its just that it would be nice to still be an innocent little girl. To not have to worry about doing certain things because it would reflect on me as a person. Sometimes you do things in life without thinking and then when you think about it again you realize that somethings you just should not have done or should have thought more into it.

Today was good, spent a lot of time with my brother. We had some good bonding moments as usual.

My car is so cute, and clean and smells so fresh. I am so happy.

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Learning the Twists and Turns of Life......   
09:45pm 02/04/2004
 
mood: awake
music: ~* oUt Side*~
How do you define when you've had enough?

huh... good question........

ash		  
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PuMpIn It Up....!?!?   
04:15pm 29/03/2004
 
mood: annoyed
music: Away from the Sun.... ~3 doors down~
I swear if it isn't one thing its another. Why can't people keep their damn mouths shut. I am so sick of shit being turned into my fault. Hello? I'm not the only one that makes mistakes. How come every time something gets said it is supposedly my fault. God! I swear high school is nothing but a bunch of fucking drama... when are people going to realize that a fucking rumor is a rumor. NOTHING MORE!?! I can't take this shit anymore. EVERYONE in this town likes to talk shit. It doesn't matter who it is everyone does it. You think someone is your friend until something gets said and then they blame it on you. I guess people can think whatever the fuck they want because I know the truth and so do they. Maybe it's that they don't like confrontations to certain people so they just find someone innocent to blame it on. GET OVER IT ALREADY! It is never going to change... people around here have nothing better to do then cause fights and drama. Maybe it is time to forget the people you thought you knew so well and go find some other good friends that won't believe everything they hear.

Lets see....
I'm doing Meth... yeah right... I'm better then that....
I am over dosing on diet pills? HELL NO! Just because I have lost weight does not mean that I am doing it unhealthy.
I smoke cigarettes... why the fuck is it anyone's business. GUESS WHAT? It's not!

Well... hopefully this day gets better... who knows though......		  
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HOLLA   
06:07pm 24/03/2004
 
mood: devious
Life is good. Life is perfect. Everything goes your way if you let it. I had a good day. Hung out with some old time friends. Talked to some new people. I guess if you just take a second to enjoy what you have going for you then you realize that not all things in life are bad.

I hate being a senior. So many deadlines... so little time. God!!! Two months and counting down.

I wish a great day to all!?!?!

Ashley *		  
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Another Wonderful Day of Pure Bliss!!   
07:00pm 21/03/2004
 
mood: bored
Wow... I never expected moving back home would be so easy. I can actually say it isn't as bad as I thought it would be. I can basically do whatever I want just like before. We had a bonding time, my father and I. It was a great day. We went shopping for food. Yummy!

I have lived in Skamania almost my whole life and I think I have climbed Beacon Rock like 3 whole times. I think it is absolutely beautiful. It didn't take that long either. It was like a 40 minute hike. I didn't even break a sweat. Yay for me!

Well, I must be going
Good Night All		  
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Who Cares!!!!!!!   
11:06am 19/03/2004
 
mood: curious
music: ~So into you~
1) Single or Taken: Taken
2) Sex: Female
3) Birthday: February 22, 1986
4) Sign: Pisces
5) Siblings: 2
6) Hair colour: brown
7) Eye colour:brown
8) Shoe size : 7
9) Height: 5'2"

FASHION STUFF
1) Where is your favorite place to shop? Aeropastle
2) Any tattoos or piercings: No
3) Favorite outfit: Jeans & Tee-shirt

THE EXTRA STUFF
1) Do you do drugs: No
2) What are you most scared of: Being alone
3) What car do you have?: Honda Civic
4) Where do you want to get married: By the water
5) How many messenger buddies do you have on right now: 0
6) If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be: Think things through
FAVOURITE
1) Subject in school? P.E. 3
2) Animals? N/A
3) Sex Position? Girl on top
HAVE YOU EVER
1) Given anyone a bath: Yes
2) Smoked? Yep
3) Bungee jumped? No
4) Fought the law? No
5) Made yourself throw-up? Yep
6) Gone skinny-dipping? Yep
7) Had sex? Yes
8) Given oral sex? yes
9) Drank? Yes
10) Failed a class? Yes
11) Kissed a person of the same sex? Yep
12) Lied? yeah
13) Cheated? Depends how you define it
14) Laughed at something that wasn't even funny? All the time
15) Sneaked out in the middle of the night? Yeah
FIRST THING THAT COMES TO MIND
1) Red: fire
2) Cow: milk
3) Socks: warm
4) Greenland: ??
5) Sex: I want it NOW
6) Hot:Guy
7) Bad teacher: Mr.Vanclifford
HAVE YOU EVER
1) Been so drunk you blacked out: Yes
2) Put a body part on fire for amusement? no
3) Been in a car accident? Yes
4) Been hurt emotionally? Yep
5) Kept a secret from everyone: Most everyone
6) Had an imaginary friend: Yes
7) Wanted to hook up with a friend:Yeah
8) Cried during a movie? yes
9) Had a crush on a teacher? Not that I can think of
10) Ever thought an animated character was hot? No
11) Had a New Kids on the Block tape? nope

MORE FAVOURITES
1) Shampoo: Honey Oatmeal(Catwalk)
2) Hair Colour: Blonde
3) Day/Night: Night
4) Summer/Winter: Summer
5) Fave Films: Butterfly Effect
6) Fave Ice Cream: Chocolate Chip Mint
RIGHT NOW, WHAT ARE YOU
1) Wearing: Jeans & Tee-shirt
2) Drinking: Nada
3) Thinking about: Guys
4) Listening to: Ms. McIntire Talking
IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU
1) cried: no
2) ate: yes
3) slept: yes
3) Cleaned your room: no
4) Done laundry: no, i am lazy
5) Driven a car: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
1) Yourself:sometimes
2) Friends: depends on the friend
3) Santa Claus: i used to
4) Destiny/Fate: Yup
5) Angels: yes
6) Ghosts: Sometimes
7) Aliens: Uhhh not sure		  
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Life's a Bitch   
08:28pm 12/03/2004
 

Sometimes life suprises you in the most unexpected ways. I don't think I have ever felt so confused in my entire life. I wish life was a lot easier sometimes. I hate school. I think it is a fucking waste of time. Being a senior sucks! I hate it so much. High school is nothing but drama. Everyone gets into everyone else's bussiness. It is so ridiculous. I am so sick of hearing about shit that is so meaning less. I wish everyone would just mind their own bussiness.

God, I don't think I can make it another three months. I have to drag myself to that hell hole everyday to just sit there and ignore the damn teachers. I could careless about what they are trying to teach me. I think I learned like one think in my CWI class. I feel like I go to that class just to waste time. I don't understand why we have to have that to graduate.

The people at school are annoying. They are so wrapped up in so much drama. I wish that people would get the hint and not talk shit. It gets really old and it's so immature.

Well... Im out

 

  
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Damn....Life Sucks..........   
01:58pm 30/12/2003
  I went to the doctor the other day to find out what is wrong with my stomach and it's not good new. I have cysts in my ovaries. They don't know if they are cancerous yet. I really hope they aren't. I go into surgery in January to see if they can detect what's going on with my stomach. Sometimes it just seems like once you solve a problem you have to turn around and try and fix another. Oh well!

Christmas was great for me. I got my car all fixed up and I got new tires so I am pretty excited about that and soon I'll be puttin a cd player in.

Everything is going well for me. I love my boyfriend with all my heart. He is the most precious thing to me. It was our 4 month anniversary on Christmas.


I'm out		  
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Hey   
09:25pm 28/09/2003
 
mood: happy
Life is going great. Things are as good as can be. I didn't do a lot this weekend. Hung out with Christopher and his friends and got wasted. It was fun. I didn't go to school on Friday. I had another doctor's appointment, I think I might have Mono. It will suck if the test comes back positive.
Well I don't have much to say.
Na Night		  
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The days come and the days go but I simply must say that I remain happy!?!?!   
11:34pm 07/09/2003
 
mood: happy
I can't believe that summer is over and that i am back in school. It is like so crazy! I must say that the older i get the more i hate having to come back to the same boring schedule every year. I mean in a way, i like coming back because it's the same ol' shit and i don't have to worry bout change but at the same time i am ready for something new and exciting to look forward. I don't know... perhaps i'm thinking to far into it. Ah well!

Anywho... I had a good weekend. I hung out with my boyfriend; Christopher! It was a blast as usual... I adore him. We went and saw the stupidest movie ever. It's called the order or something like that and it was like way stupid... i don't suggest wasting your time to go see it.

I don't want to go back to school tomorrow... but i must...
It's late and I must be going to bed.
Good Night ya'll		  
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AWWWW   
10:15am 02/09/2003
 
mood: excited
Life is good. I am really happy right now. Life is so perfect... NO drama, no back stabbing friends... everything is so great...except for starting school.... arggggg

I love my bestfriend! He is the greatest guy! Danny your the greatest!

Buh bye		  
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GuYs!?!?   
10:56pm 25/08/2003
 
mood: frustrated
music: Girls and Boys
OMG... he is so perfect... but why am I running away from him? I am so confused... he is so good to me and I am not being fair to him... how do u feel for someone the way they feel for u? It scares me in a lot of ways because he is so into me and I feel like I'm suffocating... I can barely breathe, he likes me so much and I don't see why at all. I can't make myself like him as much as he likes me but I don't want to run away from a sure thing and something that could be the best thing for me. Oh im so confused and frightened!!!		  
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Starry Night!?!?!   
04:07pm 22/08/2003
 
mood: confused
Awe, it was so sweet... he is so romantic...
So, last night, he drives up to the Cape and parks my car and comes to my door and opens it and takes my hand and leads me to the back of the car and we sit and watch the nightly sky full of shooting stars. It was so precious... he makes me feel like I am the most important thing to him. Whenever he is with me he shuts off his phone and turns all his attention on me. And like all these girl text message him on his phone and he just deletes them and says that he doesn't need anyone cuz he has me... awe... He erased all the other girls phone numbers from his phone and said that he doesn't need them anymore cuz he has me. In a way its sort of scary cuz we aren't dating and he is already so into me... but in a lot of ways its nice to be cared about.
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I don't want to go to work!!! And, Summer is almost over and I don't want to go back to school.
I'm gonna take a nap b4 work...
Na night (S)		  
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MY DREAMY NIGHT!?!?!   
12:31am 21/08/2003
 
mood: indescribable
music: GOOD CHAROLETTE CD
I think I just fell in love. He is the SWEETEST guy ever. I have never felt so special in my ENTIRE life. Things are SO perfect for me right now. He is like a dream come true. I am SO serious. I really hope I don't push him away. That would not be good and I don't want either of us to get hurt again. I just hope he is for real this time. OMG... I am so happy... FINALLY... a guy likes me for me... no acting... I think its the real deal!
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Heaven
You come from Heaven. You're the purest of pure, a
saint. You're probably an angel sent directly
from Heaven.


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So VERY True!?!?!   
02:04pm 19/08/2003
 
mood: sore
trojan very sensitive



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